Im not very well atm :(( im so hungry but I really cant eat, I feel like a pathetic sook…. my mental health nurse wants to put me in hospital again but I cant afford to do that.. my partner will loose his job and that cant happen :( and even if I did go to hospital its not going to magically make me want to eat again or stop the thoughts or the other problems. Last time I was in there I ate only one thing! I feel like there is a wall infront of me stopping me from seeing that I can live life differently.. I feel like there is no way to live life eating normally with out being/ feeling as big as a house!